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Sunday, March 9th, 2008
10:19 pm	March marks a new start. I'm changing to blogger again. I cant adapt. See me at the other side @ http://tinyglassapples.blogspot.com. (Comment on this)
Friday, March 7th, 2008
2:12 pm	Random boredness I found this quiz link from sinren's blog, so i want to search for my name also. :) Take a look: Its pretty true about me. In fact, i find everything quite true about me :x Lols. What Hannah Ong Ming Xian Means You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are incredibly sexy and sensual. You have a naughty vibe that no one can ignore. You have an unquenchable desire. And you are unrestrained in your passions. You have a tendency to be unfaithful. Whether you fight it or give in to it is up to you. What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning? . . . . . . . Other blogthings. Haha i'm just bored. You Are a Believer You definitely believe in God - and you're very unwavering in your religious beliefs. In fact, religion and spirituality are definitely big parts of your life. Religion shapes how you view right and wrong, as well as the decisions you make. It's hard for you to imagine how your life would be without your beliefs. Are You an Atheist, Agnostic or a Believer? Your Career Type: Investigative You are precise, scientific, and intellectual. Your talents lie in understanding and solving math and science problems. You would make an excellent: Architect - Biologist - Chemist Dentist - Electrical Technician - Mathematician Medical Technician - Meteorologist - Pharmacist Physician - Surveyor - Veterinarian The worst career options for your are enterprising careers, like lawyer or real estate agent. What's Your Ideal Career? How You Life Your Life You tend to deprive yourself of things you crave, for your own good. You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think. You're open to new people and friends, which makes you a pretty popular person. You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable. How Do You Live Your Life? Your Dating Purity Score: 90% You are an innocent dater. You're either lacking in dating experience or have had a long serious relationship. Either way, there's still plenty of fish in the sea out there for you to sample! Dating Purity Test Your Personality Is Idealist (NF) You are a passionate, caring, and unique person. You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily. Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend. Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours. The Three Question Personality Test Today and yesterday wasnt such good days though :/ At the school library now:) Juetong is by my side. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 5th, 2008
4:44 pm	Struggling now, but there's always hope for everything :) I'm in my school library now. It's 4.40pm, and i think i better get going once i've finished doing my chinese assessment. I'm sick today! And i never come to school for the first half of the day. :( Was really weak then. Temperature was 37.6 degrees, but really felt very hot:( Sore throat in the morn was terrible too, like when you swallow saliva also very pain. My whole body was aching all over.. Went to see doctor at 10 plus am hahas. But...... I decided to come to school in the end. :) Took medication in school. I managed to swallow the big pill[for fever.]; It's as big as panadol lehs. Some people were quite shocked that i had came to school, as suddenly i appeared in the classroom. XD I've circulated an autograph book for my current classmates. Hope everyone will fill their particulars up. :) So that it would be kept as memories, even till adult hood. ^^. I bought coloured pens too. ^^ For the autograph book. Hope everyone would have a good time looking at all of the autographs. :D Nth much today anyway. I'm loaded with quite a lot of homeworks. I studied with HanSQUARE(Zi HAN, and HANnah. get it?) at the library today, she left early as she has tuition. After blogging, i need to go back home too. Have my own tuition. Homeworks left: 1. A maths- Loads of exercises. Misc ex 13, Ex 14.3, ex 14.4 (but 14.3 14.4 completed except questions that i dunno how to do), ex 14.5. =.=. 2. E maths- Ex 5.1(thurs), ex 5.2(friday). 3. English compo(Situational writing) (thurs) 4. Chinese zuo wen(compo) 5. Chinese shi juan mo lian (4)- left 2 comprehensions. . . . . God knows what else. :/ Sorry this is so nerdy. 8-) But i really need to sort my homeworks out. I dont even know where to start now. :( Have tuition later. Today is study marathon for me! But i hope i dun get too self-centered by focusing so much on homeworks. Gotta constantly remind myself that studies is only a part of life, not my LIFE, and that God is.... Tata everyone! :D Love ya all! Current Mood: content (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 4th, 2008
10:46 pm	Sore throat. I need a relief for my hurting throat. :( (Comment on this)
Monday, March 3rd, 2008
7:39 pm	Bye, CCHY dance. Remember this? It seems like yesterday that everything has happened. :/ I was walking to my house, and i saw Mdm Yeo(teacher in charge), and asked her whether got dance tmr, and then she said, "(in chinese) Also can come, but actually not really necessary. All you need to do is just study bah. haha. bye." This made me think. Was i really bidding goodbye to dance?? Suddenly i really feel a sense of loss. :'( A part of me was gone once again. Where should i start talking about dance? Now i'm having some mixed feelings- Feeling nostalgic, yet happy it's over(cos dont need to go back for cca yay), yet depressed it's over too(many memories, whether good or bad were there). :/ I shall be quite open about this here. :) Started off when.. Cynthia, a senior, was the one who promoted me to go to CCHY. As she joined dance, she told me how nice dance was. I danced for church, like cynthia, and i really wanted to participate more in dance.. During the CCHY dance audition, Zhou lei didnt choose me for it. But i wanted to get in. I liked dance I was rejected, and it was quite rare cos i was sheltered during primary school days. <<<<< fast forward >>>>>>>>> I first came in to dance. Everyone was so slim and thin. Or maybe it was because i was too thick. I was posted to NPCC, but i wanted to get in dance, so okay, i appealed to dance. My journey in my CCA. Overall, i must say i've gone really far, for 4 years. Zhou lei took me out of the various dance items one time to another, until it became an honour to be in the dance item. I cried so much, i was determined to slim down during sec 1, once and for all, so that i could fit in. I could participate in my cca. Things started to change. From zhou lei not letting me go in to any dance item at all.. He made me participate in at least some of the dance items. Meng zhu, victoria theatre(also meng zu). SYF came and i was the reserve, together with shiyun. But as some of the seniors werent committed enough to be a part of SYF, both of us got in together. I was delighted. I could represent my school for SYF. Then came depression,a really tough time, but it wasnt totally because of dance. Anyway, i started crying and bursting into tears whenever zhou lei scolded me and picked me out. The more i cried, the more he picked me. My dance friends, whom were apparently my only friends in dance at that time cos everyone apparently were very clique-ish all went away.. Dance wasnt as good as it had been in sec 2. I was totally drained. Felt like giving up, but i could not as the syf was coming. It was really a draining time for me, emotionally. But i've managed to pull through these 4 years:). It's really an accomplishment for me, as these few years really showed myself how much i can perservere. Looking back, i'm really contented with why God put me through sufferings sometimes, and at the same time i'm happy that all of that are officially.. over :). But i'm gonna miss CCHY chinese dance. It has been a part of me for 4 years. And now, we're just leaving like that :'( ? I think this is part and parcel of life. Anyway, i wish the next batch of SYF dancers all the best:D The 3 mins performance was really a very good experience, and it definetly gave me alot of joy. Prayer group isnt really working out.. But i will continue seeking God. :) Bye blog. :D Current Mood: nostalgic (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 2nd, 2008
9:38 am	March marks a new start. God i want to go through my life with you. I'm sick and tired of being far away from you and not trusting you anymore. --> When hammie was so handsome that the girl hamsters would faint when seeing him XD. I was quite sad yesterday night; Just found out that my hamster lost his both eyes, and now he is apparently eyeless. Mummy dare not even look at him. It was quite a terrifying sight. I think it was partly my fault that he lost his eyes as he had sort of an infection a few weeks ago, and i didnt bother to send him to the vet or sth, and now he has lost his both eyes. :( He is walking very slowly too.. Last time he used to be very active, running around in his cage. Now he has trouble even going up to the food bowl to eat his food. :( Sighs. I cleaned up his cage yesterday. His food bowl, as usual, is infected by ants again. :( I feel that sometimes i'm quite of a irresponsible owner. Impulse buy my guinea pigs, and selling them away in the end. (I miss Whitie the most :( ), and not taking good care of hammie recently. But oh well, what can i say? The past is the past right? What i can do now is to care for hammie until he passes away. :'(. Hammie, thanks for giving me joy. I remember the first time i bought you from Chong Pang pet shop. It was on my sec 2 birthday, 24/10/2006. :) You were quite young at that time, probably a few months of age. I liked to see how you ran around the cage, how you curled up into a ball and slept, etc. :) Another sad thing is Kalley is leaving Singapore. Kalley you dont mind i post this in my blog right? :D Anyway.. Thank you for all the memories that you've given me. I know i havent been much of a good friend to you, but i hope that you would really take care. All the best of health and hope that you can excel well in your studies. Just want to say a little prayer for you. I know you're not a christian, but just wanna send my last wishes kays? Dear lord, As kalley departs from Singapore, i pray that you would bless her with joy and peace in her heart, and that you would be with her throughout her journey, not just her aeroplane/car journey, but her walk in her entire life. I pray that you would give her the wisdom, to do what is right and not what is popular among her peers (i feel like a politicianXD okay dont side track lol) and to just excel well in her studies and also in her friendships and future relationships. I pray that her whole family would be healthy and happy, and that you would just pour your love towards their family lord. Also, bless kalley with good health. You know her pain that she's going through right now. We may not fully know, but only you know her deepest pain inside lord. I pray that you would just heal her wounds, little by little, so that she can walk in victory and strength. :D I commit kalley to you. In jesus most mighty name i pray, Amen! Kalley, i will miss you. :( Take care okays. Keep in contact via msn/email. :) I like email and letters. Hint hint. Hahas. :) <33. I'll end it soon, gotta go study(LOADS OF UNDONE HOMEWORK:(), and need to go see kalley... I'll just say a prayer. Be postiive hannah, be positive!!! In case i get negative again, dont! Be positive. :D Dear lord, As i step into a new month, i hope you will guide me through this period, whether difficult or easy. I do not wish to go through this alone. Sometimes life is just so hard, but i just gotta know that you are there, and have been always there for me. I'm sorry for being an unfilial daughter sometimes, not trusting in you enough, not putting much effort into reading your word. Forgive me lord, i know i'm wrong. You have touched me incredibly week after week, but i've failed to put your love into practice and bless others as much as i should have. Give me inspiration o lord, to conquer everyday, with your strength! I pray that by faith, i will trust in you, and that you and i can go to a deeper level. I thank you for giving me mummy, my church, my family and those who truely care for me. Thank you for putting them in my life lord. I hope that i can be a blessing to them. I pray that i would not make studies my first, but that i will make you first. In jesus name i pray, Amen. Okay really running late. CYA!! :D <33333. Bye everyone.. Current Mood: but joyful still.:) (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 27th, 2008
6:34 pm	How to strike a balance in life? I'm kind of bored now. Nothing much to do, except piles of homework left. My mum has gone for cell group; She has cell group every wednesday. That leaves me alone with my cousin and my grandma in my house. Really bored now.)x. Just want to say how i feel about studying: Me. As anybody has known, i was once a really pathetic no-life mugger. Studied day and night, most of the time slept only for 2 hours, felt that my position in class was really very important,and not toping a test would mean death, blahblahblah. Why did i do this? Maybe I've had hurts, i wanted to cover up the hurt by choking myself with lots of work.. I wanted to be accepted by people in the class, or rather, i wanted me to accept hannah. But things didnt work out. Exhaustion came in, and finally, depression. After all that trauma, i started to constantly revise my life. Was it really worth it, to give up all my precious time, just to study, and in the end, will not get you any where in life? Is studying EVERYTHING in life? I was living in poverty at heart. Wasnt happy at all. Now. Now, i've got to revise my life again, and i dont think that i will ever stop revising my life, as in fact no one can strike a perfect balance. I was nervous of not getting top 10 this time.. Hence, okay.. i admit the day before biology and a math paper, i sort of "chionged" by sleeping only 3 hours... But then, is it really worth it to have this kind of lifestyle? What is studying for? Is it just to score high marks or you feel happy, and that it would determine your self-worth. Or is it about securing a good job in the future? Why do people compare marks, and that they get very disappointed when they dont perform better than the others? Does it really matter that much? Why put such high targets and stress yourself till you become overwhelm in the stress? Why not choose happiness? I'm speaking for myself too. -- We should put God or studies first? God Am i putting God or studies first? Studies Maybe i should put God first.. Current Mood: bored (Comment on this)
6:21 pm	Close escape. Hello[: CT results so far: 1. English - 13/25. 2. Chinese- 34/50, Overall: 66/100. 3. E math- 43/45. 4. A math- 43/50. 5. Biology- 35/50. 6. Chemistry- 38.5/50. 7. Physics- 32/50. 8. Geography- 5/12 9. SS- Not known yet. Close escape for a distracted person! Really got to know what priorities are next time. English and geography are what i was good at(used to), but i did miserably this time :/ Must find out why. Physics wasnt really good too. I'm quite happy with my math marks. ^^. Today i'm emo? P.M.S? Maybe :/ Let's see. :/ I wanna make chocolates too. ^^. I wanna give 4h and culture people too :D First need to buy chocolates and ice moulds. :D Stay tuned. With love. (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 24th, 2008
7:56 am	Jesus, beautiful saviour. [Who am i- Casting Crowns.] The mime version. Lols.(: My spiritual walk with God I'll be honest with you. For these few weeks, i've been spiritually dry. In case you dont understand, it means that you no longer feel God as intimate before. It started last July, when curious hannah when online to search about God, and what God was. Instead of building up my faith in God, it began putting doubts in my mind, tearing me down slowly but surely.. It's answers.yahoo.com btw. Lols. But anyway, i'm still on a journey to discover who i am in Christ. I'm still yet to clear all my doubts in christ, and just move ahead. Yesterday was a revival for me. I was "revived" in christ again :D Went to my first usher duty.. I was the latest, but yet still on time. :) Haha. Everyone was so early XD Actually i overslept. ): I was sick you know. Flu and itchy throat and everything. Anyway, Weeleong did a briefing for the ushers, telling us the changes and everything. Around 20 minutes. Lols. Me and Luke were team A. I was the lift lobby usher, and i need to escort people to the door.=.= And the regulars felt that it was weird, saying that they didnt like to be escorted like this. Lols. Things were overall quite alright, after all it's the first time right ? :D I'm seriously quite happy to be in the usher ministry. Seriously. [: I feel that at least i have contributed a little to the church. ^^. Then was CULTUREspot. [: Sat with luke, and francis at the side. Not much of a choice, since was on duty yesterday, so had to sit at respective places. ); Lols. Gordon, Ian, Ephraim, and Joshua performed. Haha. They were singing at the top of their lungs, to Avril Lavigne's- Complicated. Then was worship. Like all other times, it was really good. [: Maybe i havent been to youth service for quite long or what, but we didnt go up to the front in the end, we worshipped at out seats. Lols. :D I prefer going up to the front more to worship, but actually it doesnt really matter. Pastor Andrew Yeo was the guest speaker[Cornerstone pastor] of the evening. He's really an awesome pastor, the way he preached, really touched my heart so much. :D And he's by far the most funniest pastor that ever came to culture. Lols. Most scariest pastor would be James Singh x_x. Lols. Anyway.. He shared a lot of his personal stories with us. About northlight secondary school, and how he got there as a guitar teacher. How God put him as a guitar teacher in that school, and gave him such opportunities to reach out with the students in the classes which he was teaching. It just touched my heart, alot, and i guess everyone else felt touched too by his sermon too. [: Some of the stories that he had shared were: 1. About how he got to become a guitar teacher in that school. There was a burning passion in his heart, to reach out to the students from Northlight secondary school. God had told him to touch those students from that particular school, in particular, the "poor". He was puzzled as he didnt know who the poor was; This generation has ipods, computers, etc.. I mean who is poor in Singapore, he thought. As he knew only guitar, he decided to write a letter to the principal, to give free guitar lessons for some of the students. He said, God, give me a sign that this is right. I'll post the letter, and by tmr if the principal calls me, i will choose to believe that it was right. And wow, the next day the principal really called him, saying that they are very keen on finding a guitar teacher, and that the previous day the HODs have been talking amongst themselves and discussing whether they should find a guitar teacher. This indeed is really God's arrangement. When he became a guitar teacher there... 2. The holy spirit highlighted to him one girl in particular. He told the girl to meet him on saturday for La mian, and she agreed. When Pastor yeo met that girl, he didnt even preached about the word of God etc, and she began pouring out her deepest darkest secrets and her problems to him. She told him that she was sexually involved with many guys at the age of 12(she's 14 now), and Pastor yeo got a shock of his life. What was even worse was that she stated that all of her female classmates were in the same situation as her. Pastor yeo teared and just cried for her situation. She was shocked about how pastor yeo cried, as it was her situation and not his. He just offered a listening ear to her. After that day, she messaged her saying that it was the best meal she has ever eaten. Pastor Yeo was touched. He invited her to church, and she was saved that day. Cool right ? :D 3. Pastor yeo reached out to an unlovable army pal[an Ahgua =.=] during his army years, sharing the word of God with him, and this impacted him. 4. There was a girl who commited suicide before she was even saved. Pastor yeo had tried his best to bring her to church, but she had rejected it a few times. He felt a stirring in his heart during youth service to call her once again, and he and another leader tried to call him. The brother picked up the phone and told him the news about the sister's death. He went to the place where the suicide took place, and the mother was holding the girl in her hands. Then the dead body, by chance, rolled over to pastor yeo's arms, and he saw the deceased face. He said that he could not forget it, and that he felt guilty as the girl was not spared from the pits of hell but yet he had done his very best...... Sorry this is so lengthy. Then altar call came up. Many people responded, and some of us just started crying by God's compassion. It wasnt because we were sad, but the prescence of God was just so awesome at that time. One person got saved, Victoria's friend. :D Praise God! She also would like to come to church regularly too :D I'm happy and lucky too to be in Culture. [: Thank you to those who believed in me and cared for me. [: **************** 1st chocolate making "attempt". On friday, before LG, i attempted to make my own chocolates. ^^ [Actually melt my own chocolates. Lols]. Grannie wasnt too happy, cos i'm not allowed to cook anyway. I used ice cube moulds, you know the ones where you put water and then you put into the freezer and it turns into funky shapes?? I bought a large bar of white chocolate, and melted it using a small fire.^^. Tried it for the first time. Fannie(my cousin who is being nannied by my grannie) was really fascinated by what i was doing :D Lols. As white chocolate would be easily scorched by heat, you should therefore never heat it directly over a flame. During my first few attempts with around 6 cubes of chocolates, i did that and it was burning pretty badly in the end=.=. Then i tried the "double boiler" method, where you put a saucepan a quarter filled with water, and you put a ceramic bowl on top with the chocolates. Just stirr it and it'll start to melt. Heavenly :D I ate it after LG, and shared it with fannie me and my mummy. [: Definetly want to make again. I'll buy more moulds[for different shapes] if i have time to spare. ^^. *********** Chocolates for V'dae Remember this people? It was actually by Sinren, zihan, eeting, and huichin :D They also have contributed too in terms of money, in case people think that i was the only one to contribute to the chocolates. Hehe. :D Thanks for the encouragement; To the people who thanked me for the chocs. I want to do more of such things.. It's really kinda fun :D Anyone wanna carry out a similar project with me ? :D Bye. Love, hannah (: Current Mood: grateful (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 20th, 2008
10:40 pm	Common test blues ~ Darn. Now it's 10.45 pm and i'm still studying. Sighs :( I'm not being humble/persimmistic/or what, but common test was really blah for me kays. Still have biology and a maths test tmrs. Studied for a maths, mrs tan came and everything, biology still studying. Havent studied finish yet. Still at CNS. Sighs. :( This common test is really hard for me, as draining as exams, seriously. :( I really have a lot of distractions going on this few months, and it's really a pity that i've spend so much time on things which were unproductive. As in i could have served more or done more productive things :/ And seriously dont think that i can get top 10 this time, which actually is the first time i'm not getting top 10 ever in my chung cheng life. Not stuck up kays, not wanting to imply anything that i'm superior or clever of whatever...... I just want to say that it is a good experience for me. I was really feeling very emo this afternoon,like what if i fail physics that kind of nonsense, but then i thought and reflected about a lot of things through this confused period of time... Now i can relate to those who are really struggling constantly with their work etc, and it's definetly not a good feeling to feel... Just wanna say, jiayou everyone, kays ? :D Excessive pride is like yuck. I hate the feeling of being proud too. :( Tell you the truth, sometimes i cant control my pride and i let it run wild. It hurts people and hurts myself, and i need God to forgive me and i'll repent. After thursday i'm free. I wanna wanna: 1. Rent a movie at the movie kiosk. ^^ 2. Go out shopping(window). Rare, lol. 3. See yicong :D March holidays. 4. See 6c. ^^. Hazel and esther and phoebe, here i come. :D 5. Go watch P.s i love you with someone else. 6. Revise some of the chapters in my syllabus that i'm not sure of. Mole concept in chem, etc. 7. Catch up on exercise. :( 8. Read some novels. ^^. 9. Participate more in churchie. Common test, you'll be over after tommorow! Byebyebyebye~. Love, Hannah. [: Tata world. Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)
Friday, February 15th, 2008
9:25 pm	My life is like a sine curve. A moment i'm happy, and a moment i'm sad.. What the fish... Seriously i dont feel like doing anything at this moment now. ): I'm just feeling so empty, and so upset too. ): Today didnt quite go too well. But whatever it is, never ever stop trying, kays ? Dont let this setback get the better of you :). Ahhh. Stay positive hannah, you've got to stay positive. Things are really getting better. Trust me, it will. Just have to keep on trusting in God, no matter what. Hang on to him tightly. ): I feel that what kaylin say in her blog is true.. When i rethink about the valentine's presents.. Why do i need to seek love through all these presents? It's not what true love is.. When you experience true love, it isnt about how much material things you have, or how clever you are... But rather its faith, and its about the people around you too. :) I think this is how there are so many lonely people in the world today.. They have nowhere to go, and so they turn to material things/fame for love and everything, when all they ever need is love, love from within. ): ** Anyway, on a lighter note. I went to cafe today, and ate chicken with baked potato and everything. Student set. Hehes.^^. No special occasion, just to go there to hang out and eat before the ss lecture. Yup:] With juetong, sunshine, jaslin, huichin, and me ^^. Then after that homed, had math/science tuition. It was quite alright... Haha. tuition is alright to me lah.. Then after that while waiting for mum to come back home, i continued reading the Nicholas Sparks' "Dear John". Haiyoh.. I flipped through the ending.. Very sad lahs.. In the end, Savannah and John didnt get together. ): Make me more emo only. Lols. I'm a fast reader, compared to last time. Hey, at least better kays. Last time, the time i took to read one novel is a few months, and now.. it's a few days! Improvement. *Claps claps*. Haha. I really think i should be going now, carrying on with my life and everything ! Dont emo liao. Byebye ^^. Current Mood: crappy (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 14th, 2008
8:41 pm	HAPPY V'DAY, EVERYONE :D Mummy.. Happy Vday ! :D You're my most loved/favouritest/best xinfinity person in the whole world [: I love you mummy. Hehes. So.. Happy Vday people <333. Today has been the most eventful vday i've ever had, even though it was may be nth special to other people. Last year remembered that i went cafe with Ernie and Madelyn. It was nice too, really. ^^. The waffles and everything. But this year.. It's really nicer, and i feel more joy too. ^^. :) Vday is also Fatty day(said by Jenny) and Single awareness day(said by Colleen). ^^. lols. Never mind. Single is good :] Gave out chocolates to everyone ^^. Sinren, Eeting, Huichin, Juetong, Zihan, Chwen bing contributed to it too. ^^. Thanks girls. Anyway.. I hope you guys liked it :) Then after school, me Jue tong Huichin and Eeting went to Northpoint to eat lunch . ^^. Initially we wanted to watch movie.. Then after that last min didnt want to as Serena was saying chances are that the movie theatres would be fully booked and everything... Ahhhhhh! I'm dying to watch P.s: I love you.. But seems that no one wanna watch with me. Boooohooooos )': I really wanna watch that show :/ Maybe i will, but not with friends, with my mum or sth ^^. Anyway, we ended up wanting to watch movie, but after common test.. So that we can focus well. :P. Okayokay, back to story. Then we went food court, bought our food, and chatted and everything. :D I bought honey dew sago + more honey dew for the 4 of us ! :D Then we had a hearty chat about steads/crushes/etc, and whoa, it really created alot of laughter. ^^. It was also confession time- Hehes. :D Me and Eeting shared about stuffies lahs.. Hahas. Tsk :] Seriously, i've havent felt that good around with friends for a long long time... And today, i've really experienced true friendship love once again. I really hope to get out of this friendship barrier thing.. Anyway Thanks to everyone who has seen me through my difficult time.. I really appreciate it. Btw Wanna thank 1o people ^^. 1. Pastor helen. 2. Mummy *Most*. :D You helped me clear so much thoughts. 3. Mercy, my confidant. :D 4. Vina, and Nadia. :D Thanks for bringing me back to churchie. 5 The ching family. [Rochelle, edgarton, preston]. 6. My popo who stays with me. :) 7. Mr lee, I used to confide in him.. Lol. 8. Church community, who showed me what love really was. 9. My ong grandparents who supplied me and my mum money. 10. Mrs tan/Mrs goh. My 2 caring tuition teachers who are really kind and really show concern for me. :D 11. And most of all, God, who kept me going with his love. <33. :) Went back home, and had a nice little evening nap. *Yawns*. Uh oh... Have geography homework- 2 ws. I'm really dead mans :/ Havent started. Oh my... )x I did a revision time table but as this week got a lot of last min tests then cannot revise )x. Aiyah...!!!! How ): Hais. Just hope that can pull through.. People all the best for everything kays. <33. Current Mood: touched (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 9th, 2008
9:18 pm	Today nth much. :] I went to amk library to study. And i've lost my a math textbook :( . Sighs. I've got a terrible splitting headache too, So didnt meet yicong in the end :(. Should i write a letter to her? Seems that she's really grown so much. Would a letter heal wounds; Or that she doesnt need it anymore. After all, i think i've did her wrong. I shouldnt let the hurt grow for years and years right ? Current Mood: confused (Comment on this)
Friday, February 8th, 2008
5:55 pm	Confusion takes over me again. It's just an emotional phase i'm going through now. :/ I'm feeling emo again. :/ Hais. I guess problems take time to solve, right ? Why am i feeling like this? (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 6th, 2008
1:48 pm	Love. It's the greatest thing on earth. Without love, things would be so empty. Without love, life would seem so dry. I want love. I need love. I already have love. Now it's my turn to give love... The person on this earth who loves me the most is my mummy. [: The person on the right is my mummy [: 10 reasons why i love my mummy : 1. Gives me unconditional love. 2. Takes me out whenever i'm sad or depressed. 3. Saw me through all my struggles. 4. Wipes away my tears when i'm crying. 5. Says hannah jiayou when i'm almost on the verge of giving up. 6. Loves me for who i am, and not for what i am. 7. Doesnt yell at me.. 8. Is strong. 9. Is patient with me. 10. Cos she's my mummy :]. I love my mummy. I'm mummy's girl. I'm a baby. Whatever lah. i just love my mummy <3. Thank you for giving me the love that i dont deserve. Thank you for loving me so much. Mummy mummy i love mummy :]. People will see this and puke. But who cares. I love mummy :]. Mummy, your bdae is coming. Happy advanced birthday ;] I want to get married when i grow older. I want to have 2 children a boy and a girl. I'm not sure if my future husband will love me as much as my mother does, and i cant expect that to happen as marriage is about give and take, and that you need to invest in it... Not like how my mum gives me love no matter what i am... Marriage is the opposite. After the romantic period, you really need to be a good wife in order to sustain your marriage.. I'm interested to know how marriage works. Why people say marriage is so tough?? I want to know.. I dont want my marriage to turn haywire next time. I dont want to be divorced either. (Comment on this)
1:10 pm	Hello ! :D Yes yes, i've changed my blog again. If you find it a hassle, never mind dont need to link ^^. I've already released this url, so i guess those who are interested, can read ?? --> Buffet. At my house outside:D Woohooo. Chinese new year coming. :D I'm so ready for cny XD. Lots of hongbaos. My bank would become much fatter day by day XD Hehes. Hais. Life has been okay so far ? I think i'm a very lucky girl compared to others. Other people.. Some of them have family problems.. Should i tell you guys? Hais. I've never ever had a SUPER big family problem before. Other than me being rebellious(USED TO) with my grannie and mum at sec 1, till things started to go haywire.... And that my father is at indonesia... But other than that, i dont really have much problems i guess?? So i should be joyful and smile everyday right?? :D I have a lot to talk about. Too much to pen down, too much of things to sort out in my mind. :D Sometimes i get so cluttered in my mind, till there is this mental strain ?? Terrible kays. The feeling is horrible. Yesterday i had this terrible mental strain, and it boiled down to me not taking my medicine... I have ADD(Attention Defecit Disorder; Is that how it's spelt- Defecit?) btw. But it's not much of a big deal actually. Not a terminal illness. Today was quite fun. CNY celebrations... Hahas. Kaylin sat behind me, and eeting in front of me.. Then we kept on talking. ^^. The drums were nice, dance was nice.. Overall quite nice but a little bit too draggy i guess. Everyone was restless halfway through the whole concert. Jian wei made paper froggies out of the song list, and kaylin kept playing with it. Lols. Eeting kept clipping her hair :x. Then we went to northpoint. Went to minitoons. ^^. Then went back home. hahas. I tell you sth. I've never felt friendship love since donkey years ago due to past experiences this few years. But i'm slowly regaining this love back :D The feeling of friendship love is awesome i can say. :D I dont know what to say... I guess some people may know what i've went through. It wasnt exactly a 100% bad thing either, but at least i did learn something, did grow, did change into a better person :D & That's what counts. Mercy(one of my older friends) say that friends, even though temporary, can help you to dispel loneliness and all that stuff. It's good to make friends, to share lives and interests with each other, most importantly care and bless each others lives... Anyway.. I'm truely sorry if i've hurt anyone. I dont like hurting people, i feel very condemned if i hurt people. Sometimes it's due to insecurity that people hurt others ? I like the feeling of blessing others. That's why i'm gonna buy chocolates for everyone on valentine's day. :D I guess some guys may not even know when it's valentine's day. It's on 14 th febuary people, 14/02/08 (; Do something nice for people around you. Bless them with a few encouraging words... A glimpse of my life Studies - I havent been revising and studying much this few days. I'm too sucked into my own blogshop -.-. I should really buck up, as common test in on the way already lehs.. Revision timetables everyone :] Rahhhh... God and me - I'm confused sometimes. Shouldnt elaborate. But i've had many encounters with God. Sometimes hannah is so mean. She forsakes God and goes into her little lala world. And when trials come she starts turning to God and cries out to God. And when things are okay, she turns her back again... Hannah should love God more ):. Diet - Have been eating a lot. Comfort eat ): . I dont know what to say anymore. Lols. :D I guess that's all i want to say.. :D Byebye. Current Mood: loved (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 2nd, 2008
11:20 am	Hello lifejournal. Life has sometimes been in a mess. A great mess. Just trying to find out who i am, etc. Online shopping. AHHHHHH. Go away online shopping. Lols. Common test is coming. Better study harder XD Friends, come and friends go. I want good friends, and i want to be a good friend as well. Just a glimpse of my life. Aint have any time yeah? And off hannah goes. <3 Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 27th, 2008
9:26 am	Online shopping (Taken from shoppingindulgence.bs). Kookie-monster Maryjanes!! Really sweet pair of shoes. Guess how much is it?? It's like 16 bucks only, plus postage. :D Really gonna love it. Just hope that it doesnt fade off... :/ The colour i mean. ;) Lols. Maybe I'll do an online shopping business after o levels?? I just hope that i will not get too sucked into it. After all, all these things are just MATERIAL things. They can give you temporary happiness and lots of excitement, But it will not give you joy.. You have to understand that hannah, you have to understand that. I'm going to be very strict with myself about this. From today onwards, online shopping in the computer NO more than an hour per week. If one day i played more than 1 hour, the consecutive weeks cannot spend time on online shopping. Have to be very firm about this as this year is my 'o' level year. No child's play ;) Also, i dont wanna be material as i dont wanna have this bad attitude towards life and money later on in life. I dont want to be like Becky Brandon(From shopaholic). Lols. My studies I want to go to a nearby junior college, AJC is the most efficient and most nearest place here. I'm scared i cant cope there, should i go there. Today morning, the first thing which came into my mind was about the junior colleges/my future after my o levels. Should i go AJC; where many top scholars are?? What if i suffocate there?? I think i should give myself a chance, to go there and at least TRY it out. Be courageous :) But what if i can't cope?? Sighs. I should'nt worry about all these things now. Anyway, i'm aiming for 6 points for my "o" levels. Yes, 6 points. Maybe it might be crazy, but setting good goals are never bad. ;) Studying; It is to have a good future later on in life. It is to build up your confidence in yourself, not tear down. It is for self-fufillment, and not to please people. It is something which you can do for your future being as well as your current self. Even if i dont go to a JC which i want to, i can always opt for other JCs/courses. It isnt so difficult after all, isnt it?? Aiming to get A1 for all subjects: English- Read more books, do assessment books once per month, do word bank. Chinese- Do chinese assessment once every 2 weeks. Do word bank. Read newspaper. *** Need alot of attention. E maths- Continue studying consistently. I will get A1 through constant practice. I will lend a helping hand to those in need. I will do notes by myself, and practice some TYS occasionally. A maths- Trying to hand homeworks on time. If there is extra time, look at the solutions to a maths, and try out some TYS. Do some notes on it, and yes, things can be alright :) Chemistry- Practice hard for mole calculations, read periodic table, revise and do homework for chem consistently. Ask for help whenever appropriate. Biology- Do notes for every chapter. Read through after teacher has taught me. If spare time--> Can do Biology workout and TYS. Physics- Do physics workout. Try out sums, and read consistently. If can, look through TYS too. SS- Read through thoroughly. Do notes/mindmaps sometime. cultivate learning habit. Geography(E)- Do mindmaps, do homework consistently. Tommorow is my geog test, and the thing is that i havent started yet. The feeling is terrible, but what i can do is to do the best i can now. I havent done my A maths 13.1, 13.2, and it was due on tuesday. I have chem test, followed by physics test, followed by a math sec 3 test. I think i really need to do my work consistently already. Hannah, dont be complacent. Try to get priorities right, and dont be too overly stressed either. Rejection I guess this is my biggest problem now; Rejection by friends, and as well as by myself. Sometimes i come to a point of time where i just want to cover up all my hurt, and dont think about it already. I have to take control over it, and triumph over this. :) I believe i can do it, with enough time. I want to be a blessing to others. I want others to feel the love. That's all for now. <3 :) Bye, lifejournal. I'm gonna go to church. Current Mood: optimistic (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 26th, 2008
11:10 pm	My thoughts on online shopping, and what it brings. Materialism; Online shopping? Definition: It is the preoccupation with or emphasis on material objects, comforts, and considerations, with a disinterest in or rejection of spiritual, intellectual, or cultural values. I guess you might say i'm well, a little material. I dont like the feeling of how sometimes being material gives you- It gives you an empty feeling, seriously. I think i started when i went blog-shopping online. Preorders, instocks, clearance sales; These words are quite new to me, never really heard of them before. But the whole idea was fresh. I mean, people started long ago, maybe last year or this june, etc, but i only discovered it like, maybe, last month?? Anyway, so far i've bought a superman tee(I can study better with this tshirt), 3 keychains only. I'm gonna buy kookiemonster maryjanes(shoe), and i'm gonna collect 2 shimmery eyeliners + white chocolates, and a black fbt shorts this tuesday. :D Anyway, back to the real topic. I think that online shopping gives you lots of excitement, Some things i dont really like about online shopping is that it is inflexible(when it comes to meetups), it can give you worry especially when people who sell their things go potentially go MIA after a few weeks, it may be more expensive than market price, and finally, the people maintaining and selling things in their blog will DEFAME/BLACKLIST you if you go MIA. I dont really like the blacklist concept. Yes, you may be angry, but do you have to blacklist people?? I wanted to buy something from a blog today, but when i read the terms and conditions section, two girls which were blogowners of the blog said, "If you go MIA, we will never fail to blacklist you, and we will be allowed to use vulgarities against you." I wonder what they were thinking, seriously. How can they say such things?? Maybe it is their right to be angry, but look, vulgarities, etc? Dont they think that it will scare customers off?? x_x. I dont know about others, but i did scare me to a certain extent. My conclusion to handling materialism/what it brings/online shopping: Occasional online shopping is alright. Like what the definition had said, dont place to much emphasis on all this things, as in will not amount to anything. It is just what you can buy occasionally for yourself when you have a lot of money to spare. E.g me: :D I saved $80 this month. Really proud of myself. Yup. Anyway, dont place to much emphasis on things which are just for comfort. Cos sometimes, you will find yourself getting more and more greedier, and then you will get sucked into this whole thing. I dont really want to be put in this kinda situation... So yah. Better to keep safe, and just do occasional blogshopping. ;) Toodles <3 :) I've said my piece. Current Mood: giddy Current Music: The screeching of the fan, whatever that is (Comment on this)
10:58 pm	Hello. So this is me. In my new home. I just created it, and i'm really happy about it. (: Lifejournal, dont be too overly anxious, cos i'll fill you in with whatever information i have about myself. My new home. xhannahong.lifejournal.com. (: Yay. Goodnite sweeties, and everyone out there. Current Mood: cheerful (Comment on this)